Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label happy. Show all posts
Monday, 2 December 2013
Saturday, 27 October 2012
happiness
I was happy today.
It was the elated kind of happy where I loved the entire world, all the people in it, and the stunning universe that holds this amazing earth in the palm of it's giant hand, and I wasn't even drunk!
It was such an odd feeling, in a world blurred by anxiety, to just feel good.
From the moment I woke up, all throughout the day, I just felt spectacular.
All the things that bug me normally, idiot drivers, busy markets, impossible car parking at the mall, it was all just fine.
It occurred to me that this is what other people feel, in their normal lives, and it doesn't seem so odd and mildly insane to feel this good.
I'm so envious of people for who this is the norm. This miraculous peace with your place in the universe is such a spectacular feeling. I've experienced only a few times in my life, usually with the aid of valium. I wish the chemical makeup of my brain allowed it to happen more often, every day, once a week, even once a year I'd love to feel this more often than I do.
For those of you that have this, I hope you treasure it for the amazing gift it is.
It was the elated kind of happy where I loved the entire world, all the people in it, and the stunning universe that holds this amazing earth in the palm of it's giant hand, and I wasn't even drunk!
It was such an odd feeling, in a world blurred by anxiety, to just feel good.
From the moment I woke up, all throughout the day, I just felt spectacular.
All the things that bug me normally, idiot drivers, busy markets, impossible car parking at the mall, it was all just fine.
It occurred to me that this is what other people feel, in their normal lives, and it doesn't seem so odd and mildly insane to feel this good.
I'm so envious of people for who this is the norm. This miraculous peace with your place in the universe is such a spectacular feeling. I've experienced only a few times in my life, usually with the aid of valium. I wish the chemical makeup of my brain allowed it to happen more often, every day, once a week, even once a year I'd love to feel this more often than I do.
For those of you that have this, I hope you treasure it for the amazing gift it is.
Tuesday, 29 May 2012
A perfect moment
I turned 34 today. It was pretty awesome all round, though the dread and depression has been building for weeks, as it does.
Got my hair done, had awesome cupcakes, went on crafty adventures around town, had a fuss made over me, and got a few perfect presents from wonderful friends who helped me (without even knowing) through the birthday blues.
And to end the day a perfect moment...
Sometimes Americo, when he's really tired, falls asleep when we're on Skype. And it's perfect. I can hear him breathe and it's like he's here with me, even though there's such a huge distance between us.
This is the first birthday I've been without him in three years. It's been tough, but that perfect moment of hearing him sleep, it made it better.
I love you smoosh, this year I get to have you here for your birthday, and that's going to be just about the most perfect birthday present you can give me.
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